SO, a friend of mine recently wrote a “Dear 15 year old self” post on his blog and it inspired me to write one of my own. AND I am going to challenge you to write your own..or comment below and write what you would say to your 15 year old self. This letter is really for myself, but I wanted to share it with you guys. There are a lot of lessons that have to do with health, fitness, nutrition, and body image.
Dear 15 year old self,
You are going to go through a lot of ups and downs over the next 10 years. BUT you will not regret anything you do. Most of all, what you will discover over the next 10 years is that life is gray. It’s not clear cut and it’s really not about what is right or wrong…that is all situational. To figure all of that out, you will have to make a lot of mistakes and you will break some “rules” you have created for yourself. But, that’s okay. It’s called growing up. Live and learn.
Do NOT dye your hair. You are going to think it’s a great idea but…it’s not. Your hair is going to go from it’s natural color to: red, blonde (like almost white), to dark purple, to another awesome shade of red, and then finally back to your original hair color…all within like 3 months. (and trust me, they were all pretty horrible).
You will develop an eating disorder in about 2 years, which will live with you for the rest of your life. BUT the recovery process is something you will learn everything from. You will learn how to truly love yourself and you will also find your own healthy lifestyle. You will eventually end up devoting your entire life to helping others do the same. AND you will be proud of the fact that you had an eating disorder…because it brought you to where you are today.
Don’t ever think you are not good enough..You are perfectly fine Just.The.Way.You.Are. You don’t need to diet, or look a certain way, or even BE a certain way. Just be you. People will love you because of WHO truly are and not because of who you are trying to become.
When you turn 23 years old, you will become a runner. You will run your first half marathon because a friend from work asked if you wanted to. Being the person that you are, you will go for it. AND that experience will change you. It will make you feel unstoppable. It will also make you say, “I’m never doing that again”. And then, you will do 4 more. Such is life.
The relationship with your sister will go through many twists and turns. She will become your best friend during high school and then she will go to college and you’ll feel left in the dust. THEN you will go to college and then more to NYC, and she’ll feel something similar. What you need to realize is that your sister does love you and that she wants your tender love and care just as much as you want hers. But at the end of the day, you will always look up to her and she will always be your big sister.
You have to do what is best for you. Sometimes, that means letting people go, and sometimes it means hurting someone. It’s not selfish. It’s how you survive. Just be honest with everyone in your life. People who truly love you will get it and will respect any decision you make.
Cry. Laugh. Get upset. Smile. Get excited. Be mad. Just FEEL what you feel and own it. Don’t be afraid to have emotions. Emotions remind you that you are human, that you are capable of being touched by others, and that you have the ability to touch others.
You will end up moving to NYC when you graduate college. Yes, New York friggin City. The place that you see on TV and think to yourself, “Wow, New York City…the city of dreams”…you will be living and working there. Yes you did it for a relationship and I know you say now, that you will never do something like that for a relationship. BUT, you broke your own rule. And guess what? It was the best decision of your life so far.
You are going to meet people that are going to touch your life. LET THEM. Don’t push people away…pull them in closer. Surround yourself with people who are going to lift you up. AND more importantly, always be that person who lifts others up.
Remember to DREAM BIG. You have no limits. Always. Oh and pay attention in Mrs. Fays’s English class, because when you turn 25 you are going to end up writing a book and that knowledge (grammar) will come in handy.
Last, but not least, your Mom and Dad are the best parents in the world. I know that right now, you may feel that they don’t understand you and that you guys butt heads a lot, but they will become your biggest fans. They will help you through college (and slightly beyond) and will come down to New York to spend time with you when you move, and will read your blog and watch your YouTube videos. OH and they will accept you for who you are and who you become…no matter what. All they want is for you to be happy. They will love you unconditionally. They already do. Hug them and say “I love you” to them more often.
SO smile as much as you can, be honest with yourself and others, and take your pills everyday when you get diagnosed with Crohn’s Disease…even if you “don’t feel like it”. Okay?
Your 25 year old self.